I typically leave the doctors office on cloud 9 and imagined I would this week but unfortunitly I left shocked with the thoughts...."crap, this is really happening....they are growing and I'm going to be a mom to 6 babies...am I qualified for this?!!". Of course, I would die if the doctor had bad news to report so I am very very thankful for good news but reality is setting in and to be honest I'm scared.
What am I scared of?! The list changes weekly and I will share the list soon but my number one goal now is to stay focused and make it to 24 weeks. The doctor said making it to 24 weeks is vital because the babies are still developing. I have never wanted to hit a goal so much in my life and the funny thing is, unlike fitness, I can't really train for this goal. I don't think extra squats and sit-ups will help me reach this goal....hehe. I know God has me in the palm of his hand and is going to take care of me. It's just scary and also ahhh-mazing to think that the ONLY thing I can do is relax, sit back, and trust God 100%. He is in complete control!
If you are a Type A person like me, then you know how EASY it is just to sit back and NOT control the situation (might be a little bit of sarcasim in that sentence). This is a Type A's worst nightmare!
I wish I could record peoples reactions when we tell them because there are really no words to describe it. Maybe you should look in the mirror and imagine your daughter or best friend telling you she is expecting 6 and see how you react. It is pretty priceless.
Anyways, I did discover a new clothing website called Show Me Your Mumu. The name made me laugh because I can totally imagine me wearing only mumu type dresses in a month. I can't remember how I stumbled upon the website but they have great flowy tops for pregnant and non pregnant women. The top I am wearing is a not made for pregnant women but its perfect because It flows. You can find the top I am wearing here.
Next week is a HUGE week for us because we will be visiting our new doctor for the 1st time. I'm scared, anxious, and excited to start the next chapter of this journey!
Thank you all for all the love and support so far. We are very blessed to have such amazing friends and family.